Monday, April 19, 2010

Looking Back

I've been spending a lot of time looking back. Going through  eleven years of emails between me and Jack's doctors brings back many memories.  Some good, many not so much so.  I'm struggling these days and I'm not sure why.  I think Jack getting sick and being sick for so long was the trigger.  So many things going through my mind about what was, what is and what will be.  Sometimes this is just really difficult.  I was thinking about the last time I actually held Jack in my arms.  I think it was sometime in 2004.




I feel now about how I felt in that picture.  (2004 wasn't a good year.)

I'm working on getting back to my happy place. Actually, I'll settle for my content place.  I have much to be content with.  I know this.  I'll get there ... eventually.  In the meantime, thanks for checking in on us and for caring.

More conversations with a doctor coming soon ...

5 comments:

Susan said...

I don't know what was going on in your head in that picture but I see the love between a mother and son. I'm sorry that things are hard right now. I hope your coaster starts on an upswing soon. (((((Hugs)))))

Katie said...

(((Hugs))) Ann.

Heather said...

You're being thought about and hugged from a distance... ((((HUGS))))

Anonymous said...

Sending prayers to you, my friend.
Kristy

Anonymous said...

Beautiful picture. Beautiful moment. ~Amanda