Saturday, November 13, 2010

Take Two

So, I wrote a post on Friday night that I published and then deleted.  It was way too "woe is me" that even I couldn't stand it.  I should know to NEVER write blog posts on Friday nights.  Friday nights have always been the toughest day of the week for me. I could give you all the reasons why, but if you don't live the life, you won't get it and if you do live the life, you already get it, so I'll spare you the explanation.

Things are just really hard for me right now.  I miss my mom.  It's hard losing your mom.  It's exceptionally hard when you didn't get to see her before she died and when you didn't take the opportunity to tell her things you wish you had before she died.  I find myself in tears every day.

I don't like to dwell on how much life sucks at times and I don't like to write about it either.  So, I'm  inclined to say that I'm taking a blogging break until after the holidays because I don't even like listening to myself right now. But, I can't say for sure that I won't have some positive thoughts and happy moments to share over the holidays.  So, my blog posts may be few and far between for awhile, but I promise to jump on and share when I feel like what I've got to share is worth sharing.

Thank you so much for checking in on us and thank you for caring.

15 comments:

The Marangella Family said...

Hang in there Ann! Life sucks tremendously at the moment but it will get better, it's just having the patience to wait for it to get better..... Hugs!

Anonymous said...

Hugs Ann. I'll miss you while your taking your break.

Stacey

Anonymous said...

Take care of yourself. If you want to talk give me a call or an email...I "get" the parent death.
Kristy

worthy said...

Oh my dear friend, I totally 'get it' Just blog when you feel like it and don't be afraid to share when you are feeling down. I'm happy to be here for the bad days as well as the good

Julie xxx

The Hogan family said...

I just want to second the fact the Friday nights suck! Love ya girl..hang in there!

Marcie said...

Thinking of you!!!!

lesleegp said...

I don't really have words, just wanted to say I'm still so sorry about your mom......hugs to you.

Anonymous said...

xoxox Take all the time you need Ann. We will all be waiting for you when you are ready.
Tess

Susan said...

I'm sorry Ann. Sometimes when people have cancer and fight it off time after time you think they will continue to do so. They are fighters. But the end can be very unexpected. That happened to Steve's mom who battled cancer for years and died rather suddenly after she seemed to be in remission.

I for one like to read both the bad and the good. But you've got to do what is right for you. I will miss your posts but understand. I hope you have a nice holiday. Peace be with you. Love and hugs.

CS said...

I woke up thinking about you. I hope your blogging break gives you the space and perspective you need. I'll miss your words and wisdom but understand how taking a step away is sometimes the best thing. (I'm not using those 2 horrible words, pity and pedestal!)

Gretch said...

Sending you THE biggest hugs you have ever had!!!!

Justin and Victoria Nelson said...

Ann,
Over here in California, thinking about you, and sending you lots of hugs and prayers.
xo,
Victoria

Melisande said...

Ann, we love you and we are always here when you have something to say....I can only imagine what I will do when my mom passes and I am sure that I will not do it with your grace. Thanks as always for being a friend and a pure spirit.

Anonymous said...

Oh Ann. I was thinking about you today - that's why I came to your blog. I know this has to be a very difficult time for you, and I hope you know that you are in my thoughts as you walk this very difficult path. ((HUGS)) friend. ~Amanda

Mary D said...

Dear Ann, losing a parent is so hard. I remember when I asked a friend, who was a chaplin, how does one accept the death of a parent? She responded, perhaps we never "accept" it and instead accomodate the reality into our consciousness and learn to have a different relationship with them. I liked that because I could "feel" my mom around me. Like today, when I was returning home from the doctor's and I could feel the need to shop at GW's (Goodwill, one of our favorite places we loved the segunditas, second-hand stores), when I did I found some great finds. I say, thanks mom! don't worry about being too "woe is me" it is sad, sweetie, don't apologize. You are so loved and thanks for sharing what you do. Know that if you ever need to talk, I am HEAR. my number is 602-481-6809. peace to your aching heart, I can't say that it stops hurting, but it does heal and the smile returns. peace and good, always, md