Needless to say, after failing miserably at my little experiment, the tears came when thinking about how Jack must feel. I couldn't go back to sleep, so I went downstairs to lay down with Jack in his bed. When I walked into his room, I was quite surprised to see that he was still wide awake. I had my phone with me because I had intended to listen to music with my headphones on. Since Jack was awake, I ditched the headphones so that we could both listen to the music. I have a playlist of contemporary Christian songs that I played. Jack was clearly happy to have something to break the silence of the night. I held Jack's hand and tried to catch a few winks. At one point, I looked over at Jack and saw that he had tears in his eyes. This was not the first time I have seen Jack moved to tears by a song. Yet, I am always taken aback when this child displays such emotion to the words of a song. It's these moments that quell any doubt as to the depth of Jack's understanding of the world around him.
I've said it before and I'll say it again - Jack's eyes speak volumes. It's almost frightening. It's as if he sees directly into my heart, my mind and my soul. The wisdom behind the silence is piercing. There is a spirit about Jack that can't be explained, but can be profoundly felt in moments like the other night.
There are few things in this life of which I am certain, but if Jack has made me certain of anything, it's that there is a God, there is heaven and there are angels sent from heaven to grace us, to teach us and to bless us. Of what I am most certain, is that Jack is one of those angels.
For anyone wondering, the song that moved Jack to tears was "Here With Us" by Joy Williams.